My Lappy.... ='((

I send you to doctor and sooner you will get better ok honey!

miss! miss! and miss it again!

Again! I miss all those family events. Coming event would be Hari Raya Haji. And yes, absolutely! I will miss this event! Again! Perasaan yang sangat-sangat tak best! Aku rindu koranglah! Faham tak? 

CAN SOMEONE BRING ME MCD PLEASE??

mood:lapar mcd, tak lapar nasi.

I am so so so sorry.

I'm so sorry that this has happened. I am so very, very, very sorry. I am so sorry for anything that I have done. And i am sorry, I never meant to. I apologize to you.
This is the horrible thing happened to me!

mood: guilty...BIG SORRY =(

saya post ni menggunakan computer dalam lecture hall~! hoho

i'm fall in love with this song when i first heard it.

DRINKING FOR 11

Drinking For 11 Lyrics
Artist(Band):The Mad Caddies

drinking for eleven, that's just what I do,
When I'm not with you, my heart goes to bed

End of the bar, that's just where I'll be,
Don't try and come find me,
'Cause I'm already dead

With one eye tied upon the open road,
I feel your presence and I can't let it go
It moves so slowly as it creeps into my mind,
Steals every breath I have and leaves my heart behind

I wanna know what you're feeling if you're feeling alone,
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time I remember you was the last time I wasn't scared

When the night starts fadin' and the mornin' arrives,
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground?
Once more, tell me what you're fighting for

Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
There's nowhere left to stay

Sometimes I feel like I'm out here all alone,
Just one in a million stuck with no place left to go

Fear steps up to me with every move that I make
Following close behind my soul it wants to take

I wanna know what you're feeling if you're feeling alone,
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time I remember you was the last time I wasn't scared

When the night starts fadin' and the mornin' arrives
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground?
Once more, tell me what you're fighting for

Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
There's nowhere left to stay

Drinking for a livin', that's just what I do,
When I'm not with you, my heart goes to bed.

final exams

8 november 2010- KOMPUTAN PENGGUNA

                             -TITAS

9 november 2010- ENGLISH

12novermber2010- INTRODUCTION TO COGNITIVE SCIENCE

15november2010- DISCRETE STRUCTURE

16november2010-COGNITIVE PSYCHOLOGY

23novermber2010- PROGRAMMING

25november2010- LINGUISTICS

26 NOVEMBER 2010~9.05 PM

 BALIK KAMPUNG MEYH  YEA HA!!

MOOD: PREPARING MY SELF FOR FINAL EXAM

jealous and envious are two different things.

and i am having trouble with these two things.

mood:desirous of others’ position

just for my lil sis

Good luck for today's paper! I know you are allergy with numbers. I knew, for you its kinda hard paper today!
I'm here to be with you. I will always support you,will always be with you. Situation differentiates us from others.
You are strong enough to beat them. Be as strong as mom to seek for the truth, to seek for her life to be with us
Ask yourself! Either you chase after victory or you chase for failure or you're just a looser if you ever won't give a try. And bare in mind, abah is always be with us, SPEAK UP YOUR MIND DEAR!

p/s: she love facts but i love numbers. we are contra

PAPE JELAH!

Bosan dengan certain people yang tak tahu apa erti nak hidup berkongsi. Kalau tak pandai nak berkongsi tak payah la nak berkongsi. Kecil hati aku dia cakap aku macam tu. Bukan nak mengungkit, tapi aku memang tak kisah orang lain nak pakai barang aku tanpa permission aku. Nak pakai, pakai je lah. Tapi bila time dia.... malas la nak fikir pasal benda-benda jerk ni. Buang masa! Sumpah lepas ni aku tak nak pun pinjam barang dari kau.

mood: whatever!

SPEAK UP YOUR MIND

Letting other knows what you think and feel is not really easy. 

Sometimes it better to keep something by yourself and be silence than speaking up your mind and hurting someone afterwards.

SECRET

Baru seminggu, macam-macam benda nak rahsia dengan aku. macam-macam benda yang aku tak tahu. bila korek punya korek baru nak cerita. hmmm...tahulah aku ni duduk jauh, aku pun tahu mereka tak nak aku risau sangat sebab nanti mesti aku tak concentrate nak belajar,mereka pun tahu aku macam mana kalau tak ada mood tapi aku pun ada hak nak tahu semua tu kan. aku pun ahli keluarga mereka jugak kan. aku tak adalah nak kata aku nak kecil hati ke apa ke, tapi macam sedih la, kalau ada apa-apa, share je lah dengan aku, tak perlulah nak rahsia. tadi call adik, adik cerita semuanya, mak makin ok, makin bercahaya, semalam ada event, majlis untuk emak, penghabisan solat hajat untuk emak selepas seminggu berubat berturut-turut. abah buat doa selamat and sedikit makan-makan. alhamdulillah. tapi tak ada pun bagitahu aku. aku tahu pun dari wall post akak aku, tu pun sebab Sayang(cousin aku) post kat wall akak aku. semua orang nak simpan rahsia. and last 2 days, mama(mak mentua angah masuk hospital sebab ada infection kat paru-paru).

hmmmmmm....aku harap semuanya akan kembali ok dan normal nanti. kesian angah, nak melayan kerenah Amar yang nakal gila tu. Kitorang adik beradik jelah yang faham. no wonder lah kalau Kak ila(kak ipar) selalu minta tolong dengan kitorang. aku doa semuanya akan baik-baik je. tak nak dah sedih-sedih. cuma berharap supaya kami sekeluarga sabar dan tabah dengan dugaan yang DIA berikan. dalam jangka masa mak sakit ni, terlalu banyak dugaan yang kami tanggung. aku harap semua ahli dalam family sabar dengan dugaan ni. sebab aku masih ingat pesan mak, " Allah sayang orang yang sabar".

i really miss all of them.sabar ok!

NGEGEH!

Stop envious others!

Sooner will be your turn!

Tolerant sikit!

Control your emotions!

OK?!

Mood: nak sedapkan hati je..

i want BIG APPLE !

YOUR news make my day!

syukur Alhamdulillah...

Semakin pulih.

semakin ada sinar cahaya di wajahnya.

semoga sinar itu berkekalan sehingga emak pulih sepunuhnya.

Berita ini buat aku sangat happy dan sangat bersemangat.

Semoga aku akan dapat melihat emak kembali seperti sedia kala. 

Amin...

you make me feel better!

SAYA RINDU SANGAT-SANGAT KAT MAK!

SAYANG MAK!!

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN OTHERS

BAJU

bila cakap pasal baju,kain dan seumpama meaning dengannya, aku paling menyampah sekali. sebab aku tak suka basuh baju, lipat baju, apa-apa lah berkaitan baju yang memerlukan tenaga aku untuk dikerjakan. sebab aku paling elergi bila kene basuh baju, lagi-lagi lipat baju. kalaulah mesin basuh tu ada sekali function lipat baju, akulah orang pertama yang akan beli mesin basuh tu. tapi bila bab shopping baju, akulah orang pertama yang pergi berpusu-pusu beli baju. haha. aku rasa nanti la kan, bila aku dah kawin ke?(wah!)haha lantaklah! dah ada kerjaya la nanti kan, aku akan upah orang gaji untuk setlekan semua berkaitan pakaian. yang lain-lain tu aku tak kisah sangat nak buat. tapi bajulah yang jadi masalah besar bagi aku. huh! macam tu lah aku nak plan nanti ngan future husband aku.haha


NOTE: sebenarnya aku cuma nak cakap, baju aku da melambak kat dalam bakul tu dan aku dah tak ada baju nak pakai untuk pergi kelas hari isnin dan seterusnya.esok nanti aku basuhlah.haha. tu je.

INTRODUCING MY BEST FRIENDS

I'd like to introduce you to my best friends. They are the most wonderful friends I've ever had and seem too good to be true!  I definitely don't deserve my dear best friends at all!

larian KAKOM!

KIEM<RIEN<SHY<GRAH- They are gentle. They always lift me up. They never put me down. They speak truth to me, but its good truth that makes me feel better as a person. They tells me that they sees in my depths a beautiful true self below the turbulent surface, and they keeps reminding me that person is the real me. They never let my mistakes come between us or affect our relationship. They go right on with our relationship as if nothing happened that was wrong. They actually enjoy my company; laugh at my jokes, thinks I'm worth knowing. They truly accept me as I am, yet they have this way of inspiring me to live well and with dignity and love.

i dont really remember this photo. but these is after celebrating nain's birthday.
chocolate cake made by pia. location: high school,3khas 1. 16 november

NAIN-I love her so much she has been my best friend since form 3. She used to park her motorcycle at my home garage. Since that I’m closed with her. And now we were in the same university, same faculty and same course. She’s the one who always help me since my first day in UNIMAS.

PIA- I met her in class. We are in the same class, same goes to nain, and I love her so much. We used to be together in school. We’ve been separate since the end of secondary school. Now, she's in UTM. Teacher to be.

wirda zuziela jungo...haha

WIRDA ZUZIELA JUNGO- I love to called her JUNGO. I don’t know why but it sounds great and grand and HOT when it combined together with her real name. She’s a bitch, but I love her because she's so retarded. bahaha. She makes me laugh whether I’m mad at her or not. I met her since the first day in UNIMAS.

kau gemok da amus! da xhot da...
lelaki idaman malaya UM!haha

AMUS- I consider him one of my best friends.  Even I’ve just close and recently met about year ago. He’s pretty epic and amazing. He’s Pia and me driver's. haha

this is the important people that always did epic things with me in FB.even i find it so hard to meet him and i do really2 wanna meet him, he always sporting for what i do and did to him. dialah yang responsible pada kegilaan aku selama ni.sangat2 open minded! he can be too sensitive too. but i love him more like i always used too

HAZIM -He's always there to make me laugh when I’m down, and he has the most creative smileys! He has the same interest with me. We extremely love the Beatles! I met him in matrix; he’s grad on the early year of matrix. haha. I’m closed with him since the last day he's been in matrix. He’s such a true and loyal friend.  He's always ready to help or encourage. He is consistently kind to me and loyal to me.  I know he'll always be my best friend.  Always. And I used to say these words to him, 

I LOVE YOU MORE! In every text I wrote. The last time I saw him, he’s wearing black shirt and blue jeans. I’ve only has 1 picture with him. And that was before he left KMM a year ago.

i heard they called him: abang muka ketat! haha

LUTFI@ LUPI- I met him when I was in primary school, and I used to have the biggest crush on him when we’re in standard six. haha. We used to share problems. Now we're just best friends and nothing more. He watches my back.  He won't let others accuse me. I don’t remember when the last day we met was. But I guess it’s been 8 years we haven’t met each other. And truly I really miss him so much. We only contact each other through YM or FB and phone. We've plan many times to met but there are always obstacles for us to meet. And I wish that I can meet him one day. InsyaAllah. And this friendship has been the most enriching friendship of my life. And by the way, his girlfriend is fucking cute!*something missing here*
I LOVE YOU MUCHIE MUCHIE DEA!

with juwe ma bff. dia pun gilak jugak macam aku.

SHAFIQ- He's really my little brother that always supports me when I’m down. He is very positive towards problems. He is one of my buddies that know me well than others. He’s also my sport buddy. And yet I can talk freely with him about my weaknesses and never feel judged, only helped and encouraged. He's always willing to listen.  Really listen.  He doesn't put a lot of burdensome advice on me.  He truly cares about me and I feel like when I talk to him, he truly understands my perspective.  I never feel like he's going to get bored with me. And plus, he is fucking epic. And that always be the crazier thing that I always did together. haha

I LOVE SPAGHETTI!

Today, I've made my own style of spaghetti just for my close friends here in UNIMAS. The last time I cooked spaghetti is when I was in matrix, having a trip to pengkalan balak with all members of h1p7 and all the chanters. And that was the first time I cook spaghetti. And these were the second time I cooked spaghetti. And I think I've made it again. But then, I  still can smells the aroma of BBQ that we have together in PB, the kentang rentung= rentang   made by A'an and me until it 'tercampak' to the sea. Ha-ha. Real funny! That was the great, the awesome, memorable events that I always keep in refreshing so I won’t forget to eternity. Tomorrow plan, I've plan to go to pizza, just want to eat spaghetti. Again! Yummy! But I still can't beat my sister's home made spaghetti. The luscious, yummy spaghetti that I ever ate. And I think it is the best homemade spaghetti in Malay style. Suddenly I miss my home badly! I just wanna go home right now. Can someone please fly me home?  Or maybe I should find a pilot as my future boy friend? Haha. That is fucking epic!

notes for my self

TALK TO YOURSELF!!!!

• don't take yourself too seriously
• I'm just getting better and better every day
• this is great what I'm learning
• I'm so happy that I'm getting the chance to learn this
• you can make huge change in your life
• I sure have a long way to go before I'm any good at this
• you're moving towards a new way of life
• don't you ever ever give him hope for what he had done to you
• all you have to do is change! SHIFT YOUR MIND as what you've learn in cognitive science. use cognitive skills and apply the theory in your every day life
• don't simply allowing life to be done with you

mood: shifting mindset to feel a little bit better about that thing and situation

programming

this is what i've learned today
do you ever experienced when you're done doing you're assignment for presentation for the next day, suddenly  it broke-up because the files that you have saved last day turned to be a shortcut file?
ahah! this is what i learned in programming, by encoding the file code back. so your files or anything that have been hidden in the thumb drive that you might even know the existing of the files can be read back. this is all because of the damn VIRUS! and i think, everyone should learn this:

1. press "window R"- the output= 'run ' box
2. type "cmd" and click "ok" and  the windows will open it for you
3. the window will print out "C:\WindowsSystem\cmd.exe"
4. type the file of removable disk that you have key in. let say, your thumb drive is in F files, just type        " f:" after the words "C:\ Users\User>"
5. press "enter" then key in "attrib -s -h" space "tab"
6. chose the files that you want to be read and press "enter".
7. repeat the step 4 and 5 to find other files.

settle one big problem!

mood: ayat tunggang tebalik sebab terlalu excited nak share ilmu dengan korang. lantaklah! kalau tak faham inbox me ok! saya sedia membantu..(^,~)

emotional dishonesty

This is what i mean by emotional dishonesty=repression of true feeling,not acknowledging to self and other true emotional reaction.

When we say, it really did not hurt us that much, that is the emotional dishonesty .
We underestimate or repress our true reactions.But for me, i'm just being emotional dishonesty just to protect my self from heartache, mis-perception that can bring the pain and anger.

done!

as like i told you before, im not expressive. aku hanya expressive dalam penulisan. people don't really read me through my face. mereka tak kan tahu pun apa yang aku rasa.because i am totally emotional dishonesty.

seperti katak di bawah tempurung

sejak jauh dengan korang, aku rasa macam tak up to date langsung dengan semua lagu yang berkumandang di corong-corong radio. aku macam tak tahu lagu apa yang hitz di radio, lagu apa yang sedap di dengar dan lagu apa yang selalu korang dengar. pada korang-korang, tolonglah inbox aku lagu-lagu yang best, malay, indie, english terutamanya english songs, sebab currently, aku sangat menyampah dengar lagu melayu yang aku rasa, entah apa-apa entah kandungan lyrics nya. tapi tak ada la semua lagu melayu aku kritik, cuma sesetengah lagu yang buat aku macam nak mencarut dan mengarut, siapalah makhluk yang buat lagu yang bukan-bukan ni. bila nak apply dalam subject course aku, the author is like having a disease, name; aphasia, difficulty in using language or symbols of communication, maksudnya disini yang aku cuba nak sampaikan,si penulis memang suka mengarut dalam penulisan,penulisan tak disorganized langsung, walaupun aku ni bukan la terror sangat dalam penulisan dan seni, tapi aku pun tahu la juga sikit-sikit kan.something wrong somewhere in his frontal or temporal lobe. haha

 plus lagu English sangat-sangat membantu aku, improve me a lot in English,spoken or written speech.

 currently:listening to maher zain songs. the lyrics inspired me a lot.

always in my mind

i miss my matrix life. they really means a lot to me. i can't even express how fun this matrix life has been.At first, I really thought this season(PST) was going to be very long and become a very hard time because nobody knew who I was. But as the season went on, I realized that I was wrong. In my first day, I knew everyone. Not only was this season very fun and exciting, it became an experience that I thought I would never have.

The season to me was learning experience. I learned about friendship and what class means. The things I learned about friendship give me a definite edge over the other kids in high school. I learned about being a good sister, a good listener and about being a class "ceti". The experience with the them( members of m1p1 and h1p7) will help me go on to university, be a leader and be a better friend indeed. My experience with them is one I’ll never forget, the road trips and the activities. 

I enjoyed the two years I've been in KMM. the past season with them provided me with great deal of learning. we were not only thought to become better person, but to also be a responsible young men,the most helpful thing that i learned.

Miss Ross, our beloved English lecturer,taught us to be responsible young men by pushing us to be honest, strive for excellence, and teaching us that more often than not, we will suffer the consequences of our own actions.i learned how to be a good teammate. 

it was an extraordinary experience. this season was the bomb, the awesome. represented everything that was good. i am constantly still recalling moments from this unforgettable season. how could just one summer be so memorable in my life?

mood: i really miss this moment.

p/s: PDT pictures sik ada dlm lappy baru, nnt akn di upload lepas aku balik semenanjung 26 november ni...<3 u more